it's a link.



with everything printing, launch is a go. i'll mail them out myself and a tentative price is $7.

also, i'll fix the huge gap in this post when i have time.

-signed.

The Runic, the seven-track true debut [as Album Xero doesn't count as more than a tech trial/mixtape], will go on sale on 17 july. the album is variations on a theme, a simple 4-note progression. it's been stuck in my head for years, and i believe it fitting that i walk through the doors with something undeniably me. if you're one of the two people who's followed my music, you'd know that i've made a lot of small variations on the theme, but this album will be the definitive.

i'll proceed to the part where i make up genres and post something describing it. why? because this won't be written on the booklet. i'll be sure to post the disk front and cover, as well as the disk sampler, as soon as i get them re-uploaded.


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1. Broken City : breakbeat
simultaneously major and minor, reminiscing over a homeland. among other things, inspired by Katrina. if you don't exactly understand the story, it's fine... you'd have to be roleplaying with me to really know what's what.

"The Empire of Tel'Rune was once a glorious place. But in the Battle of RUNE during the Great Rhy'Dinian War, the place was ravaged, seeing many of its buildings destroyed and its citizens killed. Those surviving Royal Knights, be they Blue or Gold Faction, saw quickly that the land was to fall into ruin. In name of the Empress and Emperor that led them, they took up their weapons for one last push against the Dissident Clans of Rhy'Din.

"Tel'Rune was joined by her allies: Ceanalta, the country on the sea; The Eternal Trinity Forum-- the guilds Eclipse, Dragonsinger, and Anarchy Inc.; Torlist, the Land of Discovery, and even clans Nitewing, VePiras, Danvari, Blackrose, and De'Taron within Rhy'Din.

"The final Battle of Umbra (Terminal) decided that the Allied Forums of Rhy'Din would be the victors, but the cost was great all around. Many died their final deaths, clerics and priests unable to recover and reset the souls within the body. Some souls were even erased, rent asunder and set as pure energy to feed the bleeding world.

"I remember the day I passed through the city of Daraku Tenchi on the way to the capital on business of recovery operations. Translated from the Esterian language, the city's name is "Shattered Heaven," and I could think of no more apt a name. It was named so for the shrine of the Shattered Angel, the Avatar of Hope, that the city was built around. In its perfection, the most grand buildings were all mirror and crystal, and when the sky was a crystal blue, paintings inside the shrine seemed to move with understated life.

"Now, the city's horizon was like jagged teeth, glass protruding skyward for tens of stories like obscene, vulgar gestures and curses to the war that ravaged it. By some miracle, the oversized statue of the Shattered Angel (the actual Shattered Angel changes every few years, and it's said that the model for this was the architect's daughter, who eventually did become a Shattered Angel) was intact-- though badly damaged, missing both wings and one of its outstretched arms. The most amazing bit of damage was the situation of cracks on the figure's face, which runs easily down her cheeks. Even in dry periods, water escapes the cracks about her eyes and follows the rivets, setting the Shattered Angel to sobbing eternally."

-Tyl the Sword


2. Future : electro pop
a love song. a complete re-vocalizing from Album Xero, with 200% more audible lyrics.


3. Second Dawn : pop
lucind v of Minor Complex heard The Runic Full vBeta and, much to my surprise, wrote lyrics. she's was the reason The Runic is coming before Project Tolaria; i was planning to release in the opposite order. all the same, this femme can sing.


4. Journeying Ahead (Kaelis Wildcat Mix) : groove salad +
he and i collab and mix each other's tracks when we can. a while ago, he'd given me journeying ahead and i liked it so much that i used it for a project and included it into The Runic's "canon." it needed just a little touching up (hence the "+" behind his "groove salad"), but it's otherwise kaelis... babbling brook and all.


5. [R]Evolutionaries : uunce uunce
Revolution Evolutionaries is its full, official name as [R]Evolution and [R]E are said as "Revolution Evolution." however, just saying "revolution[aries]" will suffice as a shorthand. belongs more on the [R]Evolution album's canon, which is why this is more or less a b-side.


6. Symphony #1 "The Runic" mvt 2 "Passages" : orchestral w/chorus
the longest and slowest piece on the album, a WIP from the symphony i will complete in due time. when the symphony is completed, i will no longer write, compose, or sequence anything with "The Runic" in the title; the canon will have ended.


7. Original : 909 beat
once upon a time, there was a program called fruity loops 3. there was a wulf who made a primitive beat and a simple chanting harmony that everyone seemed to enjoy, so he kept it and it spawned a thousand children. he decided to update it slightly but keep the beat, just so everyone could be reminded of where everything started.

i know i think of the worst possible scenario, all the time. it's quite a nuisance to go through days and watch a car pass... and think, with all the certainty in the world, that it's going to blow up. or the window will roll down and i'll suddenly be the subject of a random drive-by shooting. or to be on a plane and start suddenly wondering if doomed people feel such at all, if they get a feeling of what's to come and it becomes a situation of final destination... or if they just go on blissfully unaware.

it's bad to think that i'm going to come home and the house will be on fire, or someone will be fighting, or that i'll have yet another reason to move because, say, someone went all through my things and left them in a state of utter disarray.

it's really bad to know that a quarter of the time, my worst case scenario are always on the edge of being reality, and another quarter of the time, it's actually happening.

i have a real problem with my things being messed with. it sounds trivial, i'm sure... but that's because they're not your things. if i take the time to store my extra sheet music and electronics away, i expect them not to be messed with by anyone but me. i don't really expect for someone to decide they're in the way and just move them further in the back, where wasps nests and unsafe holes lie in wait (or at least the holes WERE there; they've been fixed... no joy on the wasps and bees though)... and where a huge rain shower will soak through all the clothes i have in bags, ruining nearly all my shirts for public wear. i'd like to think that they'd be left alone in the barn i put them in, out of the way. when i buy a tarp to cover everything with so they're not exposed to the elements, i don't expect to walk by the door and see my things toppled over and open, tarp gone and with no sign of it at all anywhere. this,

my rationalization to my things being messed with is that despite me paying bills, my name isn't on the house and property deed or whatever, so ultimately it's someone else's decision what's in the way and what's not. of course, i'm 25... so i'm only using this reasoning because i'm non-confrontational and would rather just try to find another way of making things work, rather than snarling at someone for touching and disturbing things that have nothing to do with them.

my solution was to simply relocate everything i could to my car. keeping everything there will make me uncomfortable, but i need the discomfort to constantly remind me that i need to move ASAP. in the meantime, all of my clothes and electronics are between this room and my jeep. i wondered that i wasn't being selfish in filling all but one space in the car with my things, but relaxed with the knowledge that this is the only place i truly own that no other person can tell me to... get out of.

that said, i find it extremely offensive when, after stating that i have room for only one passenger, i'm told to simply take something out and make room. it's depressing to know that my things are still in everyone's way, despite me going out of my way to make sure they're in nobody's way.

in the end, i suppose it's fine. the quicker i leave, the quicker i can stop having other people suggest what to do what my things. i won't reach nirvana this lifetime; i'm a bit attached to my music and the 22 gallon tote filled with cds, movies, and games. my worst case scenario has me having a final argument over everyone else's not respecting me, my space, and my trinkets, before simply packing the rest of my things and living in wal-mart's parking lot so i can just walk to work and walk back home.

flip a coin twice, see if you get heads both times, and we'll know where i stand.

-signed.

i don't get twitter. i don't know why someone want to know what small thing i was doing everyday, especially when i'm constantly set in a loop of "wake up tired> run over a bird/squirrel on the way to work> get annoyed> come home annoyed and hot> be disappointed for the rest of the night> sleep> wake up tired." i'd like to say that the small moves i'm making are worth nothing, but they're not. my decision to eat a hot pocket over a lean pocket is not, and should not be news. nor is the fact that i have yet another setback to the mission plan.

you'll have to forgive me for taking so long to get around to the point. 4 months is a while to not be typing.

the runic, which is really supposed to be my good debut album [as opposed to </i>album xero</i>, keeps running into problems. lots of small things i don't feel like getting into right now... but now, as i uploaded the music tonight for it to be burned through a service, 5/7 files failed.

it's my wish not to work the 7-4 corporate grind that has me still going, but damn if i'm not at the edge of my calm. frankly it's depressing that two weeks later from my actually declaring the music done and myself ready to get the music to print, i still have nothing to show for it but my ever-deepening scowl.

and yet, i'm going to go ahead and re-render everything.

i seriously have to type more. almost forgot how to do it.

yeah, i'm still alive.

i voted and that feels good.

course: sue belle intersection
method: run/walk
supplemental: rocky punch
note: almost did "around the world." despite constantaly saying i could've, i lost my legs and it was about to storm. at least there was that car...

course: theaddus hill
method: run there, walk/run back
supplemental: jj
note: where are the other two dogs? watching delilah hunt rabbits is funny. too bad she lacks concentration to actually see when they zoom by.

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it's really weird. i look in the mirror and frown at what i'm seeing, but according to my pants not fitting, i actually am losing weight. why does it not feel like it, though? why does it feel like i'm going the other way? iunno... if my waistline says i'm doing something correctly, then i'll keep doing what i'm doing.

------->

today was busy. i totally forgot about the huge desk i was supposed to do for display, because with the first of the month people were swarming. i'm sure i was with one family for 30 minutes as the father tried to decide which bike he wanted (he chose a HPR in the end). heard a game was coming out tomorrow but i and the younger electronics guy looked and couldn't see what it was.

one funny... awesome thing is that i swear i saw her while shuttling bikes from A to B. i actually stopped, looking at the back of her head, and almost called her name in disbelief, to confirm or deny identity. however, i decided not to do so... because as i remembered where she is now, i laughed at myself. it's better to keep the illusion, i think.

------->

i've been really down lately, for reasons all too obvious. but then i dreamt that i was dreaming that sheldon was still alive. i was so happy, i know... it was last week, but i remember that.

then i stopped sleeping and found myself looking up at the ceiling.

"..."

-signed.

previously undocumented
course: bertha jackson intersection
method: downhill runs, walk otherwise
supplimental: jkd steps, walk/punch/block
notes: hot.

yesterday
course: theaddus hill
method: walk there, run back
supplimental: jj
notes: rest less.

i've been talking to kaelis, and we've agreed that i [and he as well] should update the world on life. however, life is rather boring or at least, not anything worth wasting an entry on where are other things to speak on. mat and i also agreed that after typing to ourselves just to get it out of the head and onto a tangible medium, the need to let everyone else know what's on one's mind suddenly dies away. so i'll not talk about things edging boring, mundane, or unpleasant. rather, i'll talk about the break from all of it, taken just days ago. i apologize beforehand for waxing philosophical or "deep" when one might not be expecting it.

mechacon... i was there when it started as a gold pass attendee for the first two years. a lack of funds prevented my going last year, but i was able to go silver this time. i admit, even i had my doubts about the level of greatness it could reach. i wasn't too big on robotech, hadn't seen any of escaflowne, and all i knew about gundam was that guy that looks like that other guy from xenogears and "shining finger." i thought it would be as another numa rei no con [someone correct me on that name], the kind that's put up for a couple of years as a diversion, then just fades away as people find better things to do. however, when you have people like beau billingslea [jet black, cowboy bebop], steve blum [mugen, samurai champloo] and mary elizabeth mcglynn [makoto kusanagi, ghost in the shell sac] as guest stars, then one realizes that there is something great in the making.

it was said by one of my roommates there that it's the kinda con where you people-watch. i agree; a lot of the con, if you're not going to every panel there is and if you somehow miss the concerts or top-billing events, then you'll be watching people interact, noting their costumes, and meeting faces new and old. personally, i can easily be found in the game room, trying out what there is and testing my skills against people who own these games. [as an aside, i'm pleased to report that though i didn't come in first, my captain falcon is just as awesome in brawl as he was in the original.] from there, the artists' alley always has someone to check out, some new talent to scope as well as the returners who you know you want to get a commission from.

i won't give an itinerary of the events, as such could be found on the website (www.mechacon.com). i have to, have to, speak on the concert that ilaria graziano [gits sac & wolf's rain soundtracks] gave, along with accompanists francesco forni and lisa furukawa. it's a well known fact amongst those who've ever sat with me during a concert or recital that i'm prone to falling asleep... apparent chronic fatigue which comes to a head when there's good, soft music. indeed, i was weary from the day's events... just a lot of general excitement, and the concert was the first time i'd really sat down and relaxed, despite the cosplay contest's end preceding it by only an hour. the music was amazing, and i was forced to rethink myself and my own music style. memories and thoughts came to me at a pace and intensity the inversion of what was usually being performed, and i swear that i've never felt such pure emotion in my heart. i was only saddened to know that there was nothing there to buy... no albums, no posters, nothing from them.

none of the con disappointed, really. it was bad that we were "that" table, the one with the people that won't be quiet or at least talk softly as others are listening to the one at the podium-- one marine woman taking pride in her ability to talk down the navy friend she has, even though he's an officer. or perhaps "because he's an officer out of uniform, and she would only respect the uniform." either way, we found them everywhere we went... nearly every major panel, and even as we went to get food at subway. it's not that they were bad people at all. it was just a bit unnerving to see them at almost every major pass. and the ride back could've gone a bit smoother... an hour late on the bus, so i got in town at 1:30 and having slept some of the way, was compelled to not go straight to sleep... so waking up after an eventual 3.5 hours of sleep, combined with the day's events themselves, had me with a tired headache most of today.

however, i'd gladly (unwillingly) be "that table" and endure a post-con fatigue headache for the relaxation that the events, and the many unexpected friends that were there. while i can certainly put a dollar value on my swag and spending, then count lost sleeping hours, it was more the people that made the con for me. i'm looking forward to the next year, where i hope to actually cosplay.

-signed.

"i'll update later about each track on album xero later. expect more text walls."

i feel the need to write, so here goes.

but before that, i wanna say wish happy belated b-day to jen, colonel, and ksaldria. i ain't forget about you... i've just not been around here.

now, the goods...

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when a website for a hotel says "standard amenities include internet," then i expect either a wireless or cable or whatever hookup in the room. not sitting at a hub in the office, 'cause now i can't make all the thousands of updates to my computer and music collection i wanted to.

so now i'm sitting here in arlington, not knowing who's where, what's what, and i've a whole day of this bull. and then i get to do it after the wedding's over.

fuck you, knights in. fuck you hard.

i don't usually post bad things 'cause i said i wasn't gonna emo it up, but i have this sickening feeling that i can't shake at all. i'd like to actually be a bit energetic and hopeful since i applied to gamestop, but this one thing is keeping my mood down and killing my appetite and whatever bit of inward smiling i could be doing. i don't talk to a lot of people for whatever reason, so you get to read.

or skip, whatever.

coming home, we saw a tag on the door saying that a sheriff tried to serve us papers, but we were all gone. calling in, they won't tell us what the issue is and we couldn't talk to anyone. property issues have been tossed around as a possible reason... something about the land being loaned or to someone else and that other person dropping out, but happening to accumulate taxes in his name. so money's owed on the house. BUT we're a bunch of poor people. i'm not working yet, brother's not working, and yet we take in my sister and her stepsister and daughter. sister switched out a daughter with the stepsister. i'm already on the housing waiting list, but i don't have enough money if i want to go and tell them I NEED TO MOVE NOW.

because the business of getting told to gtfo the property would indeed leave me homeless and understandably irate.

i really don't feel better, even after it typed this.

-signed.

i've been puttering around on the musical scene, though i've not done nearly as much as i know i could be doing. the community i frequent [gaia, if you know it] is much more centered on games and anime and all, and notsomuch on music. i find myself irritated at the inability of most people to carry on a musical conversation, but i realized quickly it's my own fault for hanging in the wrong circle for that sort of thing. the feeling of haughtiness i had when i realized that i was more knowledgeable in general music theory and all the such than everyone else around me has long worn out. i used to hate feeling stupid at not being able to come up with answers at the drop of a dime, but i don't think i'd mind someone showing me up as long it's done with music.

that's not to say everything has been annoying. to be sure, there's a great deal that has me frowning but it's not like the world's really crashing right now. i finished "album xero", my debut/demo album thing that shows my style in some of the more popular genres, as well as a track or two of the ambient nature [zero= first (think of metroid and such), i'm X, thusly "xero"]. as we speak, i'm finishing up the crop of labels to put on the front and back covers. it's 14 tracks, and i'll make a post about how to buy it off me. i made the current ones with the idea that i'm eating all the costs (though at least one has said that upon receiving, i'll be paid). one has to spend money to make money, after all. just a test to see what's what, to have the experience of doing it all myself.

this is where the bad stuff comes in. my new printer is being stupid when it comes to printing the cd cover labels. i've had about 4 sheets or more rendered useless because of print alignment issues-- the label's been printing too high on the paper, and any sort of misalignment will show white on the cd label. also, i messed up opening two of the covers, so it's all broken and i don't have any other clean and pristine covers so i'll be forced to super-glue them closed. i didn't want to seem tacky and actually use them, but as they're all i have, i'll just send them with an apology and settle with the fact that if i had money, i'd use that disk company to actually make everything (more on this later).

the fact that i got "album xero" done to this point at all makes me incredibly happy. it's been the major high point of anything musicwise, a milestone. it just doesn't always feel that way because of the trouble i'm having of printing, and how i'm going to be broke all over again when i mail the cds out. there are other albums i'm working on, the closest being "project : tolaria." that album will be an OST for a shmup game that doesn't exist, based on one of the groups i roleplay with. there will be a seperate post sometime later that has my notes on how the game will be so i'll leave out my musing on that out. just know that most tracks are techno or the such, with style variants to fit the stage theme or whatnot. i'm not getting much in the way of opinion on this, on purpose. if i was being asked to do this by someone else, i'd definitely get help on a couple of things but so i don't run into legalese down the road or something, i'm just brainchilding and writing solo.

there's also a commission i've had going for nearly a year, we sisters three. it's a three-part medley with an introduction and all-in section to finish it off. definitely my first of this style so... i didn't know what to do for a good while. i keep hitting snags, trying to figure out how to blend sections, as well as how to do the sections themselves. the first three (intro, sister 1, sister 2) were pretty easy as i was toying with something on and off for one of the sisters anyway, so put that in. another thing i'd made before that went nowhere, i dusted it off, made style changes, and put that in there. the introduction just came to me easily, so was nice. it's the third section, that's supposed to hearken to era's ameno that's been giving me trouble. i didn't know how to classify it in a genre past "that mystical kinda electronic stuff with latin vocals sung by a choir, kinda like evanescence but not really." but after walking away then forcing myself to come back to it, something's happened and i'm now working on that. i've already had the ending planned, but i didn't know how i was going to get there. things seem to be in shape now... hopefully, a couple more months, if that long, and i'll be able to dust my hands off.

this is what i've been doing. i'm rather boring, with little going on in the way of anything else. no gf, no job (the contractor-typr guy i was working with has been doing chemo for lung cancer so he's not working), no car. i know what i need to do to get these changed, so i'm not too worried. i'll get worried when i search and can absolutely find nothing suitable for me.

well, album xero was catalyzed by someone i knew at school asking me for podcast music, a need to get my name out somehow, and a reason closer to the heart or whatever. i've been talking to someone and i do like her and want to see if things can go on, and i'm as horrible with ever with my words. it's a rather Romantic [note capital] thing to do, writing a song that expresses what is and could be, but that's what the runic future is for. i rather like the song, i've been listening to it on loop for a while. i only hope that i'm not being too presumptuous or pressing issues that we already discussed, though i did think it was worth writing. "no more words than those which i have sung..." that's been my motto for the week, in direct relation to this.

i'll update later about each track on album xero later. expect more text walls.

-signed.

i planned on going to work, but woke up in the middle of the night with chills, though my skin was hot. i can't decide whether to turn the heater on or keep it off, because i'm always uncomfortable. i'm probably going to go to work tomorrow, stop by the dollar store afterwards, and drink a bottle of medicine. the last time i ignored the flue, i almost suffocated.

true story. couldn't breathe during a long coughing fit.

i can't say i'm HAPPY here, but i'm not GRRGOTTAGTFO... for the moment. things happen and my mom knows what these things are that annoy me and i don't want to be around here when things happen 'cause... they're gonna keep happening. "what's happening?" we'll put it like this... martin needs to learn to listen, and joshua needs to be sent to the navy or something.

and ronica needs to stop trying to get me to do things with her. "move to dallas? move to alexandria? go half on property with me?"

we have our ways of doing things to succeed. she's very NOWNOWNOWNOW, moving at a whim and unable to stay in some place. i'll have none of it... i wish for stability. i have it here, and i have a plan to gradually work myself out of the house. it'll take 2 months [@ 20 hrs/week] but it can be done. save money, get car, drive into the sunset or rain.

DRIVE AWAY.

i'd be an ass to tell people they can't stay with me when i move since i stayed a summer in ronica's house [and a month alone in it], but i don't want that drama following me, really. everyone's got too much going on. i need to handle my own stuff.. you know how it is. gotta be a little selfish.

otherwise, it'll be music street all over again. i don't know if i can take another music street.

music! i'm planning to put out two albums to get my name out there. i've been feeling stupid about this lately, but it's not like i really have anyone to talk to about this. so i'm just gonna... do what i do at my own pace and hope. if the 7-year plan fails...

...well, let's not think of that.

-signed.

this is a review of cool world, a movie i acquired while in new orleans. i wanted to see it for so long and now that i've watched it, i want to confirm or deny those claims people made about the movie. don't care? don't click the link.

( rets batteru. )

it was too bad that attendance was just short of half of the alloted turnout [14 of 32; would have been 15 but one kid disappeared after paying and before qualifying], but i had fun at NOISE III. currently at kaelis' place for the week, just destressing before i jump back in the thick of things.

being in the presence of rock star [the godawesome game] has filled me with inspiration. while working on damien's sky which is supposed to be a rock song, i got into it and started singing and imagining the video. and when i imagine the video, then i've really understood the music and where i need to go with it. now it's a matter of finishing it off.

i've had at least the final section of the video for runic angel in my mind for a while now. i know how the chorus is, and i know the feel-- if he hadn't done it already, i'd use the matrix freezing that coolio's see you when you get there used... i'll instead use a distorted time thing where either the focus person's moving slower than everything else or vice-versa. i just need to finish writing the rest of the lyrics and i just did some of that. recent events have reminded me to write on that song so hopefully i can get it done.

too bad my voice isn't that good for single solo singing because i think the lyrics will be great.

feel free to link to this journal; i want the opinion of everyone who's involved. i looked at some ddr logos and the prominent things seemed to be the femme and the circle. i originally had the saints' colors, but ended up inverting them... it looks nice like this, i think. what say y'all?

emo. a good declaration of intent. i found it funny that someone actually stealth-deleted me from their friendslist. while i'm not the type to start whining about it, it did make me blink at the other person who's done a good deal of venting to me [and was expecting me to write music for a game project], and at myself to remember another truth- though i may feel better writing it, it's not for everyone's eyes. nobody cares.

so this is gonna eliminate all that. a musical or artistic work journal... keeping track of those i want to... keeping track of those thoughts i may want to keep track of. nothing else changes.

we start this off with an announcement of current projects, an update on status. explanations of projects may/will/should come later.

• Project: Tolaria [shmup]


• We Sisters Three [3 song medley with intro/bridges]


• Symphony #1 "The Runic"


• togots [rpg] until further notice, this project has been dropped.


• X/0 [x divided by zero, album zero]
  

i also need to redo my website and check about copyrights but that'll come a bit later.

-signed.